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THANKSGIVING
After Ivor Gurney
00:00 / 01:03
Journal
I hold the tiny duck heart
tightly in my hand
letting the blood
drip down
my forearm.
This is what we do all alone.
Soon, I will unearth
its yellowing body
from the depths
of my empty fridge
where it has been
bathing in salt.
Wash it in orange juice,
soy sauce, sugar,
every hour, on the hour,
until I send it to
its second death
in a hot oven.
Have you ever eaten duck
then used its bone as a spoon?
So many years
I denied myself
wasting away
until I could
no longer
climb stairs.
I know I must slip
this red wet thing
down my throat.
But I just stand here
in the morning light
with an unbeating heart
in my open palm
incapacitated –
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